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Sunday, January 06, 2008

cupcakes in my head

i've been cramming my studies a lot lately... that way- i can pass all my exams && High school. i'm really tired of high school. Everyday is the same thing..the same little useless drama. the same faces, the same...green and white hallways. i guess all my classes are just making me goo BANAAAanAs?!?! >.< but i mean, classes and my daily walk has definitely been mind boggling. soo much temptation and stress. which once again is soo unnecessary. -.- Temptation of having fun and procrastinating thus leading to stress and alll nighters.

but i've also been fighting temptations in other areas. my daily walk for example has been getting stronger but at the same time weaker. Everyday is like a battlefield. One of the lesson from Joe's program was the battle of another individual. The idea of him(another individual) accepting God right before his death VS. someone accepting God at the age of 5 is definitely unbalanced. but who are we to judge? this state of mind only makes our walk weaker. everything is unfair, but you know what... we were given free will to do what we please. and thats the awesome part. Because in the end, whatever choices me make is upon ourselves. we cant blame our parents. our friends. high school. everything is on us.

Therefore right now... my head is filled with pink and greeen vanilla cupcakes. Everything is like a temptation. a tempting sweet yummy cupcake!! satisfying...eh? but these temptations WILL NOT satisfy me. because i know there are better things to come.

like like a bigger prettier looking cupcake to fight the tempting cupcake.

And as we speak that cupcake is here and i know what i need to do.

ps- i havent use xanga in soo long. its sooo...confusing!!

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